Hello, PupiToonic. If you are so sure, you should see a medical professional about it as soon as possible. There might be a lot of helpful resources that you could have access to (including but not limited to: medication), but doing nothing about your "80% sure"-hunch will not help you.
Protokyuu
it doesn't have to be something about being unlucky! I have BPD which is one of the hardest mental illnesses to deal with in the world. I don't let it slow me down, it's apart of me! We have different brains and that's okay. You can thrive with this brain! It's you! It doesn't have to be a bad thing, learn to be your best self, and be proud of who you are!
PupiToonic (Updated )
Thank you for telling your part of the story and for your encouragement. That means a lot!